Thursday, June 20, 2013

finding my purpose

Looking out of the plane window into the vast landscape,
I felt very small and humbled and insignificant.
 I am just a speck on this earth.

It's so easy for me to feel so big and brave,
until I am reminded of just how little I am.
What is my significance?  
Have you ever wondered why you are here on this earth?
I sometimes think about this.
A few weeks ago, Mr. Tidy and I had one of those deep conversations.
We used the 5 Whys Technique to help me find out
what my purpose in life could be.
I first answered him with what you'd expect...
To be a great wife and mother, daughter and sister and friend
As we dug deeper, I realized that maybe I am here for other things, too.
It wasn't long before creativity crept into the conversation.
After working through several of the whys,
I think that maybe one of the reasons I am here is to encourage others to create.
I have thought about this a lot the past few weeks, and I think that could be true.
What I love most in life, other than being a wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend,
is inspiring others to create.
My hope is to do this by sharing ideas on this blog and
by teaching art to others.

I love to create.
If I have a few days in a row that I don't have time to create something,
 I am super grumpy!
Creating, to me, can be in so many forms.
Photography, painting, cooking, gardening, journaling, decorating,
writing, and even thrift store shopping can be a creative outlet.
And that is why I love this blog so much.
I can share all of the above right here!
celebrating creativity everyday
That is my motto.
It is my hope to inspire you and lift your spirits,
even if it's just for a few minutes of your day.
I can't tell you how exciting it is for me to photograph
something and upload it to this blog.
in hopes that it will inspire someone
Maybe you're inspired by looking at something pretty from nature,
or finding out you can decorate using something inexpensive from the thrift store,
or maybe you're inspired to cook or garden or paint or take photos!
If something on this blog ignites a creative spark in you, that would make ME so happy!
And that is exactly why I blog!

I love teaching art.  
Through the years, I have taught art to children, teens, and adults.
When I am teaching art, I am definitely in my happy place.
I love to watch someone's eyes light up
when they have created something meaningful. 
To me, that process is absolutely beautiful.
And I love to see when students can't wait to create
again and again and again!

I love when art is therapeutic.
When we create art, we can be taken to another place,
not literally, but in our minds.
That place may be a bright and happy place,
which I hope it is for you most of the time.
But, sometimes it can be dark and ugly.
There have been many times in my life when I have
needed to throw up on a canvas.
I could put things on canvas that I couldn't put into words.
Art was therapeutic for me.  Art helped me in ways I can't describe.
Art helped me work through my pain.

I also love to see someone connects with an artist... 
when they just get their work.
The two artists I connect with most are Marc Chagall and Frida Kahlo.

For me, the farm-like scenery Chagall uses is so nostalgic.
I grew up on a farm, and looking at his art takes me
right back to my childhood...
I see the tall pines that stretch toward heaven.
I smell the fresh cut fields after Daddy spent the afternoon mowing.
I feel the rich, moist soil of the garden between my toes.
I hear the cows mooing in the distance as I try to sleep at night.
I taste Mama's fried chicken and homemade brownies.
And now I miss home.
And now my tears are flowing.

Frida Kahlo's art is equally as inspiring to me, but in a different way.
She had many health problems during her life.
To me, her art is so real.
I have been to a few of her gallery showings,
and it is all I can do not to stand in front of her art and just weep.
I wish I could let her know how her art has influenced me.
Seeing her art makes me want to push through my own pain...
and just create.
and just be brave.

You see, life has dealt me a few health problems.
I don't want to dwell on them.  I know we all have our own junk.
But, I am very aware that the chronic pain from endometriosis and
interstitial cystitis can break a person over and over.
I have fallen down many times,
but I keep getting back up.
I will not let it rob me of my joy.
Soon, I hope that I will be brave enough to share
my story about my illness on this blog,
in hopes that it will encourage someone else.
As you can see, I have been soul searching,
pondering my significance, and praying for answers.
I do believe we are all here for a reason.
 I realize my purpose may change over the years,
but it was kind of fun to think about what my purpose may be right now.
What do you think your purpose is?  I would love to hear from you!

I am so thankful for my family and friends that love me and support me.
I am thankful for being inspired by God's beautiful creation everyday,
 and that I have the opportunity to share that beauty on this blog!
Hello!  Check out those mountains!  They are AMAZING!!
And I am so thankful for my blog readers.
I hope you find beauty and inspiration here.
I know that some of you may
just need a little something to lift your spirits...
I hope you will find it here:)
Or maybe you just like to visit to see what new messy project I'm up to.
Whatever the case,
 I hope you'll continue to visit my blog and celebrate creativity with me!
Have a blessed day!